About

Assalamu’alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh,

I’m Umm Abdallah.

Life, as I’ve realized, doesn’t always go the way we plan. I’m a mother of ten, a wife, and I am still learning how to live this life—one day at a time.

I grew up in Indonesia and now live in the Middle East. My life is a vibrant, sometimes exhausting blend of cultures, traditions, and ways of doing things. In the middle of a big family and a busy home, I am doing my best to find my footing.

One thing I’ve learned is this: Not everything will go smoothly, and that’s perfectly okay.

The Reality of the Roots

Some days feel calm and full of barakah. Other days feel heavy—days where my energy is limited, and I have to learn the hard lesson of pacing myself. On those days, I just try to get through with patience and quiet du’a.

And then there are the “simply okay” days—where we carry on, doing what needs to be done, one “spoon” at a time.

Barakah Roots is a place for all of those days.

This blog isn’t only about motherhood, even though it’s the air I breathe. It’s about learning to live with intention while carrying the many roles that shape who I am:

  • A Wife navigating a multicultural marriage.
  • A Mother learning and growing alongside my children (the Ibadillah).
  • A Woman balancing big dreams with real-life limitations.
  • A Servant of Allah trying to find my place in this dunya.

Not Perfect. Just Honest.

I don’t have everything figured out. I struggle with the “unfinished projects,” the matted hair, and the “LinkedIn” versions of success that sometimes make me feel small. I am learning to be at peace with the mess—both in my house and in my process.

At Barakah Roots, you’ll find real stories. They aren’t polished or “Instagram-perfect.” They are honest reflections on motherhood, marriage, faith, and the invisible labor that keeps a home standing.

I choose to remain mostly anonymous so that this space stays focused on what truly matters—the lessons, the reflections, and our shared connection to Allah.

A Note from My Heart to Yours

(Or: The “Imposter Syndrome” Disclaimer)

Before we begin this journey together, I want to be very honest about what this space is—and what it isn’t.

I am not a scholar, a life coach, or a parenting expert. I am a woman navigating a chronic illness, a mother of ten managing a busy home, and a servant of Allah trying to find my way. If you are looking for a perfectly polished life or “proven 5-step solutions,” you won’t find them here.

In this space:

  • The “Management Office” in my brain is often messy. (Executive dysfunction is my silent roommate.)
  • My energy is a finite resource. (I live by “Spoon Theory,” not by “Hustle Culture.”)
  • I am a work in progress. (Some days I have the answers; most days I just have the questions.)

I share my stories not because I’ve “figured it all out,” but because I believe there is Barakah in the struggle. If I wait until I am “perfect” to speak, I will be silent forever.

So, if you see a typo, a “stagnant” week, or a post that feels a bit raw—know that it’s just me, being human. I invite you to bring your own “unfinished projects” and “low-spoon” days here, too. We aren’t here to be perfect; we’re here to be sincere.

Let’s Walk Together

Whether you’re a mother of one or many, a wife finding your balance, or someone with a “Ferrari brain” trying to find your tires… you’re welcome here.

Let’s walk this journey together, slowly and sincerely, with patience in our hearts and barakah in every step.

May this space be a source of comfort for you—wherever you are on your journey.

Warmly, Umm Abdallah