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A warm watercolor illustration of a family practicing appreciation and gentle guidance at home. In the foreground, a Muslim mother embraces her smiling son as he completes his schoolwork, celebrating his effort with quiet affection. In the background, a father offers calm instruction to another child while a young girl listens nearby. Golden afternoon sunlight fills the cozy room, where books, plants, a lantern, and cups of tea create a peaceful atmosphere. The scene reflects encouragement, mercy, family connection, and the balance between recognizing effort and offering loving correction.

The Missing Ten Percent

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A soft, warm watercolor illustration in a gentle children's book aesthetic showing a Muslim mother in a long cream-colored gown and a dusty rose hijab. She stands in side profile, looking thoughtfully into a large full-length mirror in a bedroom filled with amber afternoon sunlight. Her hand rests gently on her waist as she contemplates her reflection. In the background, elements of a full, busy life are visible: a neatly folded stack of laundry on a chair, a children's book titled "The Little Muslimah" on a nightstand, and a framed Quranic reminder hanging on the wall that reads "And rely upon Allah; and sufficient is Allah as Disposer of affairs (33:3)." Subtle, magical light effects and star dust trail softly across the foreground.

I See Myself in Her

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A warm watercolor illustration depicting a mother building systems to reduce daily friction. Prepared fruit, organized groceries, reusable containers, and helping children reflect the unseen accommodations many women create to navigate chronic fatigue, brain fog, and limited cognitive bandwidth.

The Neurodivergent Tax

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Muslim woman in a hijab sitting by the sea at sunset in a colorful watercolor illustration, reflecting on midlife, caregiving, and renewal.

The Inner Thoughts of a Perimenopausal Woman

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A vibrant watercolor illustration of a festive all-women's Muslim pool gathering. In the foreground, a large buffet table is filled with samosas, fresh fruit, popcorn, and drinks. Women wearing beautiful, colorful hijabs chat inside a decorated living room, while one mother looks out a large window to watch children happily swimming in a backyard pool with a pink flamingo float.

When Everyone Speaks the Language of Invisible Work

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  • A warm, sunlit collage celebrating Muslim sisterhood and community. Women gather in a cozy home, chatting over tea while children play together in a backyard pool with bubble toys. A generous potluck table overflows with homemade dishes from different cultures, alongside desserts, coffee, and refreshing drinks. Other scenes show sisters sharing a reminder, helping clean up together, girls in pretty dresses, and quiet details such as a prayer mat, lantern, fresh flowers, and cups of coffee. Soft, natural tones and candid moments convey hospitality, friendship, gratitude, and the joy of opening one's home for the sake of Allah.
    Islam,  Sisterhood

    Laughter, Lunch, and the Last Hour of Jumu’ah

    July 14, 2026 / No Comments

    Yesterday was one of those days that left me physically tired but emotionally full. The gathering began at 3 p.m. on a Friday. To be honest, I wasn’t in the best place emotionally before everyone arrived. There were things weighing on my heart, and for a moment I wondered whether I would have the energy to host at all. To make matters worse, my Temu order hadn’t arrived in time. The decorations I had planned weren’t there, and some of the games I’d prepared had to be skipped altogether. A few years ago, I probably would have felt disappointed. Yesterday, I learned that none of it really mattered. Because the…

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    Hayaa is not a wall that keeps love out. It is the dignity that keeps the 'Me' intact. It is the sensor that tells me when I am safe. I am learning that I can be a sanctuary with a door—and it is okay to tell the world when that door needs to be closed.

    Hayaa in a Loud World

    April 14, 2026
    A close-up shot of a fold-down airplane tray table in a dimly lit cabin. Two empty metallic tuna tins are stacked on a white napkin. A brown leather journal with a pen and a red paper cup are nearby. To the right, a passenger in a dark sweater rests their hand on their belly. The scene is illuminated by a warm overhead reading light.

    The Tuna Heist and the Moussaka’ah Mistake

    April 15, 2026
    A cinematic, warm-toned photograph of a woman from behind, wearing a heavy, cream-colored prayer dress (isra). Her hands are raised in the opening Takbir of prayer, facing toward a soft, hazy light streaming through a window. The background is softly blurred, suggesting a domestic interior with the golden glow of a Sharjah afternoon. The image is framed with elegant gold filigree corners, emphasizing the sacredness of the quiet, private moment.

    Finding Stillness on the Rug

    April 15, 2026
  • A vibrant watercolor illustration of a festive all-women's Muslim pool gathering. In the foreground, a large buffet table is filled with samosas, fresh fruit, popcorn, and drinks. Women wearing beautiful, colorful hijabs chat inside a decorated living room, while one mother looks out a large window to watch children happily swimming in a backyard pool with a pink flamingo float.
    Motherhood Unfiltered,  Sisterhood,  United Arab Emirates

    When Everyone Speaks the Language of Invisible Work

    June 29, 2026 / No Comments

    Recently, I hosted an all-women’s pool gathering, and I cannot stop thinking about how beautiful it was. Not only because the children had fun, or because there was a giant spread of food, or because the pool was full of laughter. But because, for a few hours, I was surrounded by women who truly understood. Before the gathering even began, the invisible work was already in motion. I am so incredibly grateful to my husband and my older boys, who were gracious enough to completely give the house over to the women and girls for the day. They didn’t just step aside so everyone could swim comfortably and relax freely;…

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    A warm watercolor illustration depicting a mother building systems to reduce daily friction. Prepared fruit, organized groceries, reusable containers, and helping children reflect the unseen accommodations many women create to navigate chronic fatigue, brain fog, and limited cognitive bandwidth.

    The Neurodivergent Tax

    June 30, 2026
    a collage of food, molokhia stew, rendang, ratattouille, and lasagna

    The Trail I’m Leaving Behind

    April 21, 2026
    A collage of laundry racks, wooden clothespins, and washing machine cycles in a large family home. High-volume sun-drying laundry system in a Sharjah villa.

    The Secret Engine Room (a.k.a. The Side Garage)

    April 28, 2026
  • Reflections,  Sisterhood,  United Arab Emirates

    The Lunch That Lasted Until 10:00

    April 5, 2026 / No Comments

    Yesterday, something shifted. It started as a simple suggestion—a meeting for inspiring ladies near my house in Sharjah. SubhanAllah, it blew up. Suddenly, thirty women were gathered at Sadaf Restaurant, sharing a meal and a space that we all desperately needed. We ate (the food was incredible—I finally learned that Barberries are their own tiny, tart magic on rice!), but more importantly, we exhaled. Finding the “Me” in the Middle of “Them” As expat women in a faraway land, it is so easy to lose yourself. We talked about the struggle of being “just” a mom, “just” a wife, “just” a daughter. For a long time, I’ve struggled with the…

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    A soft, warm watercolor illustration in a gentle children's book aesthetic showing a Muslim mother in a long cream-colored gown and a dusty rose hijab. She stands in side profile, looking thoughtfully into a large full-length mirror in a bedroom filled with amber afternoon sunlight. Her hand rests gently on her waist as she contemplates her reflection. In the background, elements of a full, busy life are visible: a neatly folded stack of laundry on a chair, a children's book titled "The Little Muslimah" on a nightstand, and a framed Quranic reminder hanging on the wall that reads "And rely upon Allah; and sufficient is Allah as Disposer of affairs (33:3)." Subtle, magical light effects and star dust trail softly across the foreground.

    I See Myself in Her

    July 1, 2026

    The Lockdown Chronicles (Part 1): “Shollu Fi Rihalikum” and the Great Egg Hunt

    April 6, 2026
    A collage of five photos showing the beautiful chaos of motherhood: scattered blue and green building blocks on a floor with a vacuum cleaner, a toddler sitting in a mess of flour on a dark wood floor, an overflowing dresser drawer with colorful laundry, a kitchen counter cluttered with dishes and tea, and a splattered paint mess. A yellow scribble at the bottom right symbolizes the mental load.

    An Example of My Jumbled Mind (The Forty-Tab Brain)

    April 21, 2026

About Me

Umm Abdallah

I’m an Indonesian mother of ten, now making a home in the Middle East. Most of my days are spent navigating the beautiful, heavy, and often messy reality of a large family and a body that requires me to move a little slower.

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