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A warm watercolor illustration of a family practicing appreciation and gentle guidance at home. In the foreground, a Muslim mother embraces her smiling son as he completes his schoolwork, celebrating his effort with quiet affection. In the background, a father offers calm instruction to another child while a young girl listens nearby. Golden afternoon sunlight fills the cozy room, where books, plants, a lantern, and cups of tea create a peaceful atmosphere. The scene reflects encouragement, mercy, family connection, and the balance between recognizing effort and offering loving correction.

The Missing Ten Percent

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A soft, warm watercolor illustration in a gentle children's book aesthetic showing a Muslim mother in a long cream-colored gown and a dusty rose hijab. She stands in side profile, looking thoughtfully into a large full-length mirror in a bedroom filled with amber afternoon sunlight. Her hand rests gently on her waist as she contemplates her reflection. In the background, elements of a full, busy life are visible: a neatly folded stack of laundry on a chair, a children's book titled "The Little Muslimah" on a nightstand, and a framed Quranic reminder hanging on the wall that reads "And rely upon Allah; and sufficient is Allah as Disposer of affairs (33:3)." Subtle, magical light effects and star dust trail softly across the foreground.

I See Myself in Her

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A warm watercolor illustration depicting a mother building systems to reduce daily friction. Prepared fruit, organized groceries, reusable containers, and helping children reflect the unseen accommodations many women create to navigate chronic fatigue, brain fog, and limited cognitive bandwidth.

The Neurodivergent Tax

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Muslim woman in a hijab sitting by the sea at sunset in a colorful watercolor illustration, reflecting on midlife, caregiving, and renewal.

The Inner Thoughts of a Perimenopausal Woman

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A vibrant watercolor illustration of a festive all-women's Muslim pool gathering. In the foreground, a large buffet table is filled with samosas, fresh fruit, popcorn, and drinks. Women wearing beautiful, colorful hijabs chat inside a decorated living room, while one mother looks out a large window to watch children happily swimming in a backyard pool with a pink flamingo float.

When Everyone Speaks the Language of Invisible Work

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  • Warm collage capturing ordinary Muslim motherhood and faith-filled daily life: a missing white sock lying outdoors, hands on a steering wheel during a school run, soft morning sunlight in a quiet living room with plants, a woman holding Quran and prayer beads, and a calm breakfast moment with a child holding mugs. The images reflect the spirituality of ordinary Tuesdays, school-morning routines, and finding barakah in small repetitive moments.
    Faith,  Hadith,  Islam,  Motherhood Unfiltered,  Reflections,  United Arab Emirates

    Faith Is Also Built on Ordinary Tuesdays

    May 11, 2026 / No Comments

    I think when I was younger, I imagined faith would feel more cinematic than it actually does. I imagined spiritually strong people as calm and refreshed all the time. People who prayed every salah with perfect focus. People who read Quran peacefully for long stretches without interruption. People who woke up for tahajjud with glowing skin and emotional stability. I thought closeness to Allah would feel quiet and uninterrupted. But adulthood, especially motherhood, feels very different from that. On a Tuesday morning in Sharjah, faith sometimes looks like searching frantically for one specific white school sock while the clock is ticking and we should have left the house five minutes…

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    A warm watercolor collage inspired by Surah Al-'Asr, featuring peaceful scenes of Islamic family life and spiritual reflection. A Muslim woman contemplates a sunrise, studies the Qur'an, journals, cooks for her family, teaches her children, makes dhikr with prayer beads, and walks alongside loved ones on a garden path. An hourglass symbolizes the passing of time, while soft golden light and tranquil landscapes evoke faith, righteous deeds, patience, and the quiet beauty of everyday worship.

    My Thoughts on Surah Al-‘Asr

    July 17, 2026
    A warm watercolor collage depicting a Muslim woman through seasons of faith and gratitude. She is shown making du'a at night, reflecting by a sunlit window with the Qur'an nearby, organizing a well-stocked pantry, reading the Qur'an during a quiet afternoon, embracing her children, sharing a peaceful family meal, and sitting in contemplation during the rain. Additional vignettes feature a glowing lantern, a cup of tea, and a tranquil garden path at sunrise. Soft earth tones, gentle light, and cozy home interiors evoke themes of answered prayers, everyday blessings, remembrance of Allah, and finding beauty in ordinary moments.

    After Allah Answers the Du’a

    July 12, 2026
    Collage of modern school-morning life featuring a phone with unread notifications beside coffee, school uniforms hanging ready, a backpack and shoes prepared for the next day, an empty school hallway, and packed lunchboxes. The images reflect the quiet emotional rhythm of modern motherhood, school routines, and preparing children for ordinary days again.

    Ordinary Mondays Feel Like Mercy

    May 10, 2026
  • Hadith,  Islam,  Spiritual Perspectives

    When “The Best” Feels Out of Reach

    April 9, 2026 / No Comments

    We have all heard the Hadith: Often, we hear it in the context of leadership—the way a father or a husband carries himself. And rightly so. But as a mother of ten, I’ve found myself sitting with these words… a little differently. What does it mean to be “the best” when you are bone-tired? What does it look like when the “smallness” of daily life—the endless questions, the missing snacks, the constant mental load—begins to weigh on you? The “Forty-Tab” Brain The mental load of a mother is invisible because it is made of micro-decisions. From the outside, it can look like we are “just sitting with a laptop.” But…

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    Warm collage capturing ordinary Muslim motherhood and faith-filled daily life: a missing white sock lying outdoors, hands on a steering wheel during a school run, soft morning sunlight in a quiet living room with plants, a woman holding Quran and prayer beads, and a calm breakfast moment with a child holding mugs. The images reflect the spirituality of ordinary Tuesdays, school-morning routines, and finding barakah in small repetitive moments.

    Faith Is Also Built on Ordinary Tuesdays

    May 11, 2026
  • Islam,  Marriage,  Reflections

    Vulnerability as a Woman’s Strength

    April 8, 2026 / No Comments

    In our Deen, the roles of men and women carry a divine logic that is both simple and profound. The husband is the provider and protector—the Qawwam. The woman is the heart of the home, the one who nurtures and builds what cannot always be seen. On paper, the balance is clear. But in the lived reality of a long marriage, the heart often feels the gravity of that arrangement. The Smallness of Asking There is a specific kind of vulnerability that comes with not having your own income. It’s quiet. Subtle. Hard to explain to those who haven’t stood in those shoes. It shows up in the smallest moments.…

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    Hayaa is not a wall that keeps love out. It is the dignity that keeps the 'Me' intact. It is the sensor that tells me when I am safe. I am learning that I can be a sanctuary with a door—and it is okay to tell the world when that door needs to be closed.

    Hayaa in a Loud World

    April 14, 2026
    A cinematic, warm-toned photograph of a woman from behind, wearing a heavy, cream-colored prayer dress (isra). Her hands are raised in the opening Takbir of prayer, facing toward a soft, hazy light streaming through a window. The background is softly blurred, suggesting a domestic interior with the golden glow of a Sharjah afternoon. The image is framed with elegant gold filigree corners, emphasizing the sacredness of the quiet, private moment.

    Finding Stillness on the Rug

    April 15, 2026
    A dramatic five-panel collage illustrating a first Umrah journey. The top panels show the Masjid al-Haram at night, a lonely desert highway at sunset, and the back of a woman in a black abaya. The bottom panels feature a car dashboard with a glowing 'Fuel Low' warning light and a pair of open hands raised in prayer before the Kaaba in Makkah. The imagery captures the transition from the vulnerability of a desert road trip to the spiritual sanctuary of the Haram.

    The Road to Makkah, My First Umrah and the Hijab in the Mataf

    April 12, 2026

About Me

Umm Abdallah

I’m an Indonesian mother of ten, now making a home in the Middle East. Most of my days are spent navigating the beautiful, heavy, and often messy reality of a large family and a body that requires me to move a little slower.

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