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  • Soft green-toned collage illustrating the invisible labor of motherhood in a large Muslim family: a hijabi mother holding papers while children move around the kitchen, children helping wash dishes together, and a mother folding laundry quietly. Botanical sketches and soft neutral colors create a warm, reflective atmosphere about caregiving, teamwork, mental load, and everyday family life.
    Motherhood Unfiltered,  Reflections,  Spiritual Perspectives,  United Arab Emirates

    Nobody Claps for the Mother Who Remembered Everything

    May 13, 2026 / No Comments

    Nobody claps for the mother who remembered everything. Usually, they only notice the one thing she forgot. It’s the child suddenly announcing at 9 PM that they need green cardboard for school tomorrow. It’s the “Mama, did you sign this?” paper appearing exactly when everyone is already wearing shoes. But beneath those frantic moments is a vast, silent ocean of things that did happen because you remembered them: the favorite snack you bought, the way everyone’s different food preferences live permanently inside your brain, and the small emotional tensions you noticed before they ever became arguments. I don’t think most families do this maliciously. Invisible labor becomes invisible precisely because…

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    A collage of five photos showing the beautiful chaos of motherhood: scattered blue and green building blocks on a floor with a vacuum cleaner, a toddler sitting in a mess of flour on a dark wood floor, an overflowing dresser drawer with colorful laundry, a kitchen counter cluttered with dishes and tea, and a splattered paint mess. A yellow scribble at the bottom right symbolizes the mental load.

    An Example of My Jumbled Mind (The Forty-Tab Brain)

    April 21, 2026

    When “The Best” Feels Out of Reach

    April 9, 2026

    The Lockdown Chronicles (Part 1): “Shollu Fi Rihalikum” and the Great Egg Hunt

    April 6, 2026
  • Warm collage illustrating the emotional atmosphere of womanhood, home, and financial vulnerability: a Muslim woman browsing rugs and fabric in a store, children resting on a worn family sofa, coffee and budgeting notes beside a calculator, a cozy lived-in couch with a laptop and tea, and a beautiful dream living room with new sofas and a large rug. The collage reflects the longing for softness, beauty, dignity, and emotional ease inside ordinary family life.
    Islam,  Marriage,  Motherhood Unfiltered,  Spiritual Perspectives,  United Arab Emirates

    The Quiet Vulnerability of Financial Dependence

    May 12, 2026 / No Comments

    Sometimes I stand holding an item in a store for far too long before quietly putting it back. Not necessarily because we cannot afford it. But because I am already mentally tired imagining how to explain why it matters. I think many women understand this feeling immediately. The small internal rehearsal. How to make the request sound reasonable enough. Necessary enough. Useful enough. Worth asking for. Especially when the thing is not pure survival. A notebook. A new prayer dress. Comfortable shoes. Skincare. An iced matcha. Containers you genuinely believe will finally organize your life this time. Tiny things. Tiny things that help tired women emotionally survive adulthood. And honestly,…

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    Hayaa is not a wall that keeps love out. It is the dignity that keeps the 'Me' intact. It is the sensor that tells me when I am safe. I am learning that I can be a sanctuary with a door—and it is okay to tell the world when that door needs to be closed.

    Hayaa in a Loud World

    April 14, 2026
    a collage of food, molokhia stew, rendang, ratattouille, and lasagna

    The Trail I’m Leaving Behind

    April 21, 2026
    “Retro-inspired collage capturing the imaginative world of 80s and 90s television nostalgia: MacGyver-style survival tools and multitools scattered on a workbench, a neon-lit futuristic car dashboard inspired by Knight Rider, a glowing sci-fi time portal reminiscent of Quantum Leap, and a Wild West cowgirl figure standing in a dusty frontier town. The collage reflects childhood imagination, imported television culture, adventure fantasies, and the cinematic inner worlds children created before the internet era.”

    MacGyver, Quantum Leap, and My Wildly Unqualified Childhood Confidence

    May 13, 2026
  • Warm collage capturing ordinary Muslim motherhood and faith-filled daily life: a missing white sock lying outdoors, hands on a steering wheel during a school run, soft morning sunlight in a quiet living room with plants, a woman holding Quran and prayer beads, and a calm breakfast moment with a child holding mugs. The images reflect the spirituality of ordinary Tuesdays, school-morning routines, and finding barakah in small repetitive moments.
    Faith,  Hadith,  Islam,  Motherhood Unfiltered,  Reflections,  United Arab Emirates

    Faith Is Also Built on Ordinary Tuesdays

    May 11, 2026 / No Comments

    I think when I was younger, I imagined faith would feel more cinematic than it actually does. I imagined spiritually strong people as calm and refreshed all the time. People who prayed every salah with perfect focus. People who read Quran peacefully for long stretches without interruption. People who woke up for tahajjud with glowing skin and emotional stability. I thought closeness to Allah would feel quiet and uninterrupted. But adulthood, especially motherhood, feels very different from that. On a Tuesday morning in Sharjah, faith sometimes looks like searching frantically for one specific white school sock while the clock is ticking and we should have left the house five minutes…

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    A colorful, watercolor-style collage of iconic childhood characters and figures from 1980s and 90s Indonesian television. The top half features animated characters Doraemon, Shin-chan, and Chibi Maruko-chan alongside the live-action hero Ksatria Baja Hitam (Kamen Rider Black). The bottom half shows a realistic illustration of the Japanese drama character Oshin as a young girl and woman, and a portrait of the friendly dragon Si Komo with the smiling mentor Kak Seto. The entire composition is set against a soft, pastel-colored artistic background

    My TV Memory Lane, from Oshin to Si Komo

    April 13, 2026
    A collage centered on a classic portrait of Jane Austen in a blue dress and bonnet, surrounded by four stylized panels of diverse women. To the left, a woman in a warm orange hat and another in a dark green hijab are framed by soft floral patterns. To the right, a woman in blue and two silhouetted figures are depicted in a vibrant, pop-art and watercolor style. The composition illustrates the bridge between 19th-century literature and modern, multicultural identity.

    Hijabi’s Path to Jane Austen’s Longbourn

    April 14, 2026
    Hayaa is not a wall that keeps love out. It is the dignity that keeps the 'Me' intact. It is the sensor that tells me when I am safe. I am learning that I can be a sanctuary with a door—and it is okay to tell the world when that door needs to be closed.

    Hayaa in a Loud World

    April 14, 2026

About Me

Umm Abdallah

I’m an Indonesian mother of ten, now making a home in the Middle East. Most of my days are spent navigating the beautiful, heavy, and often messy reality of a large family and a body that requires me to move a little slower.

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