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A warm watercolor illustration of a family practicing appreciation and gentle guidance at home. In the foreground, a Muslim mother embraces her smiling son as he completes his schoolwork, celebrating his effort with quiet affection. In the background, a father offers calm instruction to another child while a young girl listens nearby. Golden afternoon sunlight fills the cozy room, where books, plants, a lantern, and cups of tea create a peaceful atmosphere. The scene reflects encouragement, mercy, family connection, and the balance between recognizing effort and offering loving correction.

The Missing Ten Percent

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A soft, warm watercolor illustration in a gentle children's book aesthetic showing a Muslim mother in a long cream-colored gown and a dusty rose hijab. She stands in side profile, looking thoughtfully into a large full-length mirror in a bedroom filled with amber afternoon sunlight. Her hand rests gently on her waist as she contemplates her reflection. In the background, elements of a full, busy life are visible: a neatly folded stack of laundry on a chair, a children's book titled "The Little Muslimah" on a nightstand, and a framed Quranic reminder hanging on the wall that reads "And rely upon Allah; and sufficient is Allah as Disposer of affairs (33:3)." Subtle, magical light effects and star dust trail softly across the foreground.

I See Myself in Her

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A warm watercolor illustration depicting a mother building systems to reduce daily friction. Prepared fruit, organized groceries, reusable containers, and helping children reflect the unseen accommodations many women create to navigate chronic fatigue, brain fog, and limited cognitive bandwidth.

The Neurodivergent Tax

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Muslim woman in a hijab sitting by the sea at sunset in a colorful watercolor illustration, reflecting on midlife, caregiving, and renewal.

The Inner Thoughts of a Perimenopausal Woman

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A vibrant watercolor illustration of a festive all-women's Muslim pool gathering. In the foreground, a large buffet table is filled with samosas, fresh fruit, popcorn, and drinks. Women wearing beautiful, colorful hijabs chat inside a decorated living room, while one mother looks out a large window to watch children happily swimming in a backyard pool with a pink flamingo float.

When Everyone Speaks the Language of Invisible Work

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  • Reflections,  United Arab Emirates

    One Full Trolley

    April 5, 2026 / No Comments

    This week, I filled one full trolley. The big one. At Lulu. But it didn’t start at the supermarket. It started at home, peering into the fridge and the pantry. One lonely cucumber, half-empty milk, and the kind of leftover rice that no one really wants anymore. That was when the “thinking” began. The Mental Map Before I even reached for the car keys, I was already carrying a load. It’s the list no one else sees: By the time I was walking through the aisles, I wasn’t just shopping. I was navigating a map of my family’s needs and moods. Item by item, it didn’t feel like much. Milk.…

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    Soft watercolor illustration of a plus-size Muslim woman wearing a neutral hijab and socks sitting on a Pilates mat in a sunlit family living room after exercise, surrounded by resistance bands, dumbbells, folded laundry, books, tea, a protein drink, and a bowl of spicy noodles.

    The Unglamorous Truth of Going Back to Fitness

    July 2, 2026
    Warm collage capturing ordinary Muslim motherhood and faith-filled daily life: a missing white sock lying outdoors, hands on a steering wheel during a school run, soft morning sunlight in a quiet living room with plants, a woman holding Quran and prayer beads, and a calm breakfast moment with a child holding mugs. The images reflect the spirituality of ordinary Tuesdays, school-morning routines, and finding barakah in small repetitive moments.

    Faith Is Also Built on Ordinary Tuesdays

    May 11, 2026

    The S26 Ultra and the Fear of the Escape

    April 5, 2026
  • Reflections,  Sisterhood,  United Arab Emirates

    The Lunch That Lasted Until 10:00

    April 5, 2026 / No Comments

    Yesterday, something shifted. It started as a simple suggestion—a meeting for inspiring ladies near my house in Sharjah. SubhanAllah, it blew up. Suddenly, thirty women were gathered at Sadaf Restaurant, sharing a meal and a space that we all desperately needed. We ate (the food was incredible—I finally learned that Barberries are their own tiny, tart magic on rice!), but more importantly, we exhaled. Finding the “Me” in the Middle of “Them” As expat women in a faraway land, it is so easy to lose yourself. We talked about the struggle of being “just” a mom, “just” a wife, “just” a daughter. For a long time, I’ve struggled with the…

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    A warm watercolor illustration depicting a mother building systems to reduce daily friction. Prepared fruit, organized groceries, reusable containers, and helping children reflect the unseen accommodations many women create to navigate chronic fatigue, brain fog, and limited cognitive bandwidth.

    The Neurodivergent Tax

    June 30, 2026

    The Lockdown Chronicles (Part 2): Six Computers and a Car Ride

    April 7, 2026
    A warm, sunlit illustration of a Muslim mother in a hijab reflecting at a table with a notebook, while her five children safely play and prepare snacks in the cozy, golden-lit background of their living room.

    Evidence

    June 27, 2026
  • Children,  Reflections,  United Arab Emirates

    Tangled Hair and Me

    April 5, 2026 / No Comments

    As an Indonesian, my hair has always been simple. It is straight, fine, and easy to manage. I rarely keep it very long; once it grows past a certain point, it starts falling like rain in the monsoon back home. So I had to cut it shorter. It is always like that. It is predictable. It is quiet. My daughters, Allahumma barik, are the complete opposite. Their hair is a wild, beautiful crown—curly, dry, coarse, and long. In the Arab world, this is the “ideal.” People love to see it flowing. But the reality of living with that beauty is a weight I don’t always have the energy to carry.…

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    An image of three large woven laundry baskets packed with clean, folded clothes and towels. Bright greens, blues, and whites are visible. A few items of clothing lie softly on the plush rug in the foreground. The background is a neutral, textured wall.

    Laundry, We Will Always Have Laundry

    April 15, 2026
    A collage of laundry racks, wooden clothespins, and washing machine cycles in a large family home. High-volume sun-drying laundry system in a Sharjah villa.

    The Secret Engine Room (a.k.a. The Side Garage)

    April 28, 2026
    A bright, airy kitchen scene showing the faceless hands of a Muslim mother and her children preparing a large meal. In the foreground, a mother's hands stir a steaming stainless steel pot on a modern stovetop. Nearby, children's hands are busy chopping vegetables and reaching for fresh fruit. On the side counter, a multi-cooker and rice cooker sit among grocery bags, while a hand-designed family chore chart is visible on the wall in the background. The atmosphere is warm, sun-drenched, and captures the busy, organized rhythm of a large household

    How I Feed 12 People Every Week (The Logistics of Barakah)

    April 12, 2026
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About Me

Umm Abdallah

I’m an Indonesian mother of ten, now making a home in the Middle East. Most of my days are spent navigating the beautiful, heavy, and often messy reality of a large family and a body that requires me to move a little slower.

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